WHY- THIS IS THE QUESTION OF QUESTIONS IN MY BOOK...
WHY IS IT SO HARD TO ADMIT WHEN YOU'RE WRONG? SAY YOU'RE SORRY? TELL SOMEONE YOU LOVE THEM?
THIS MEDIA INFILTRATED SOCIETY LEAVES OUR OWN OPINIONS BLEAK AND UNSTEADY. I MEAN FROM RADIO TO MOVIES. RSS FEEDS TO NEWSPAPER. HELL, EVEN PODCASTS TO BLOGS...LOL.
I MEAN HONESTLY...WHY IS IT SO HARD FOR THE HUMAN MIND AND HEART TO EXPRESS TRUTH? WHY CANT YOU MEET SOMEBODY...LIKE THEM FOR WHO THEY ARE AND LOVE THEM FOR EVERYTHING THAT THEY'RE NOT. I MEAN...WHO SAID THAT LOVING SOMEONE HAS TO HAVE A TIME LIMIT. WHAT IF THE FIRST TIME YOU LOOK INTO THEIR EYES YOU IMMEDIATELY LOSE ALL SENSE OF SELF. WHAT IF YOU HAVE THE SUDDEN URGE TO WANT TO SPEND EVERY BREATHING MOMENT WITH THEM. WHAT IF THEIR EVERY TOUCH MADE BUTTERFLIES ERUPT DEEP INSIDE OF YOUR ABDOMEN? WHAT IF THEIR EVERY TOUCH IS LIKE A TATOO? WHAT IF YOU NEVER WANT TO FORGET OR ERASE ANY TEXT MESSAGE, INSTANT MESSAGE, OR MYSPACE MESSAGE THEY EVER SENT TO YOU?
WHAT IF EVERY KISS THEY GAVE YOU SECRETLY SAID "I CARE" BECAUSE THEY ARE TO AFRAID TO VOICE IT? WHAT IF SOMETHING AS SIMPLE AS SLIDING YOUR HAND FROM THEIR FOREHEAD TO THEIR CHIN SAYS "I LOVE YOU WAY MORE THAN I SHOULD" BUT YOU CANT TELL THEM. YOU JUST CANT. WHY? WHO CAME UP WITH THIS SHIT? IT ANGERS ME THAT WE (INCLUDING MYSELF) HAVE TO BOTTLE UP EVERYTHING INSIDE BECAUSE BEING TOO HONEST WILL MAKE THEM RUN AWAY.
WHEN DID IT COME TO THIS.? WHY IS IT MORE COMPLICATED WHEN ITS IN YOUR HEAD, YOUR HEART, EVEN IN YOUR SOUL EVER SO LUCIDLY. SO CRYSTAL CLEAR...BUT IT NEVER RECIPROCATES THAT WAY.
WHY DO WE HAVE TO FIGHT OUR OWN REALITY FOR THE SAKE OF SOMEONE ELSES FEELINGS? WHY DO WE LET OUR PAST AND MISTAKES OF OUR PAST DICTATE OUR EVERY NEXT MOVE? WHY IF YOU FIND PURE UNADULTERATED HAPPINESS YOU CANT JUST LATCH ON TO IT? I MEAN REALLY SUCK IT UP. LICK ALL THE NECTAR...FILL YOUR BELLY WITH ITS DECADENCE.
I MEAN, IF LIFE IS MEANT TO BE LIVED, WHY DO WE CHEAT OURSELVES...BECAUSE OF FEAR...OR BECAUSE WE ARE UNSURE OF THE OUTCOME. ITS CRAZY TO ME. BECAUSE I WANT TO BE AS FREE AS THE PERSON IN THIS BLOG, WHOEVER THAT MAY BE, BUT I TOO, SUFFER FROM THESE NOTIONS.
AND IF EVER I GOT THE NERVE TO VOICE THESE THINGS, I WOULD KNOW THAT FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY TWENTY SOMETHING YEARS OF LIVING, THAT I HAVE TRULY FALLEN HEAD OVER HEELS IN LOVE.
SO THE QUESTION IS WHY? WHY DONT I BECOME THE PERSON IN THIS BLOG...WHY DONT YOU BECOME THE PERSON IN THIS BLOG?
WHY?
