MIC

SOMETIMES I FEEL THE NEED TO RELEASE BECAUSE I HAVE AN INSATIABLE ADDICTION CAUSING ME AFFLICTION IN THE WAY I COPE IN LIFE WITH OUT HIM. NEVER TO BE SATISFIED UNTIL I AM AGAIN BY HIS SIDE SO I PLACE MY VERBAL MASTURBATION ON PAPER UNTIL I CAN AGAIN COME WITH HIM SIMULTANEOUSLY. I AM A FEIND AND I KNOW IT.

I HAVE AN ADDICTION AND I SHOW IT. THERE IS NO REHAB THAT CAN REHABILITATE MY CURRENT DIAGNOSIS. I HAVE SPENT THE LAST 5 MONTHS IN A STATE OF WITHDRAWAL THAT WAS PURE HELL BECAUSE MY BODY CRAVED OF THE SMALLEST TASTE OF HIM. I WENT ON A HUNT ONLY TO FIND THAT THERE WAS NOT ANOTHER WHO COULD EVEN TOUCH THE SURFACE OF REPLACING HIM. I AM A FIEND AND I KNOW IT.

ADDICTED TO HOW HE LETS ME BLOW IT. ANYWAY I WANNA DO IT, HE JUST STOOPS TO MY LEVEL TO MAKE SURE IM IN A COMFORTABLE POSITION. ADDICTED TO THIS HEAD GAME. HE INSPIRES ME TO BE A HIGHER ME AND EMPOWERS ME TO KEEP GOING UNTIL WE RELEASE. AND THEN....WE'RE BACK AT IT AGAIN. BECAUSE I HAVE A HIGH TOLERANCE FOR ONLY HIM. I AM A FIEND AND I KNOW IT.

HE'S A WHORE AND I PROMOTE IT. BECAUSE THE BOND WE SHARE WHEN IT'S JUST HIM AND I IS TO POWERFUL TO LET GO. THERE HAVE BEEN A NUMBER OF WOMEN WHO HAVE FALLIN VICTIM TO HIS BLACK POLE. SOME OF THEM I DIDNT KNOW. BUT OTHERS LET ME WATCH AS THEY INDULGED IN THEIR FORNICATION.

HER LIPS TO HIS HEAD, HER HANDS GRIPPIN HIS SHAFT, AND OTHERS WERE SO TALENTED, THEY DIDNT HAVE TO TOUCH HIM AT ALL. I WATCHED HER TECHNIQUE AS I ANXIOUSLY WAITED MY TURN. HE TURNED ME OUT. SO WHEN HE'S WITH ANOTHER CHICK, IM NOT BOTHERED. I KNOW WHEN MY TURN COMES AROUND AGAIN, WE'RE GOIN TO SKEET ALL OVER THE VENUE.

HIM AND I CREATE POSITIONS YOU AINT EVEN INTO. I AM FOREVER LOYAL TO HIM, SO PLEASE DONT GET TO COMFORTABLE WHEN HE'S WITH YOU. SOME OF YALL DO IT FOR THE SPOTLIGHT, SNAPS, HANDCLAPS, AND THE OOO OOO'S. I DO THIS SHIT FOR MY RELEASE OF THIS ADDICTION IM ADDICTED TO. I DO THIS FOR YOU MIC, BECAUSE MIC, I'VE MISSED YOU!

I AM NOT HER

I CAN SMELL YOUR FEAR. I CAN FEEL YOU'RE PETRIFIED OF WHATS ALREADY HERE. YOU SPEND YOUR TIME TRYING TO PROTECT YOUR HEART BECAUSE OF WHAT SHE DID. YOU LIVE YOUR LIFE IN A BUBBLE BECAUSE SHE COULDN'T HANDLE YOUR PASSION. AND NOW I MUST SUFFER FROM THE PAINFUL RESIDUE OF ANOTHER. I MUST ACCEPT THIS PUNISHMENT AND CALL IT PATIENCE TO EXCUSE THE FACT THAT BABY, I AM NOT HER.

YOU CONTINUE TO HOLD BACK WHATS ON YOUR MIND WHILE YOUR HEART IS FIGHTING TO MOVE FORWARD. YOU HAVE BECOME DEAF TO THE REALITY OF ACTUALLY LETTING ME LOVE YOU. THE CLOSER I GET THE MORE U FIGHT. SHELL SHOCKED SCENES OF HER AND HIM CLOUT YOUR JUDGEMENTS. AND I MUST ACCEPT THIS PUNISHMENT AND CALL IT PATIENCE TO EXCUSE THE FACT THAT BABY, I AM NOT HER.

YOU PLAY WITH THE THOUGHTS OF THE WHAT IF'S AND THE PROBABLY NOTS. CONTEMPLATING, DEBATING AND RENEGOTIATING YOUR TRUE FEELINGS TOWARD AND FOR ME. YOU RELEASE REVISED, TWICE EDITED, ROUGH DRAFTED VERSION OF YOURSELF TO ME...LIKE I DONT DESERVE THE BRAIN STORM SHEET. AND I MUST ACCEPT THIS PUNISHMENT AND CALL IT PATIENCE TO EXCUSE THE FACT THAT BABY, I AM NOT HER.

FLASHBACKS HAVE BEEN FAST TRACKED INTO YOUR MEMORIES OF WHAT USED TO BE. SUBCONSCIOUSLY PLAYING ON THE WHAT WAS TO IGNORE THE WHAT SHOULD BE. CONTINUOUSLY MAKING EXCUSES OF WHY THIS CANT JUST SIMPLY BE WHAT BOTH OUR HEARTS LONG TO BE. BUSYING YOURSELF IN TEDIOUS TASK TO IGNORE THE REALITY. AND I MUST ACCEPT THIS PUNISHMENT AND CALL IT PATIENCE TO EXCUSE THE FACT THAT BABY, I AM NOT HER.

I CAN FEEL YOU PULLING AWAY LIKE THIS IS A TUG-O-WAR COMPETITION. BUT YOUR HEART IS STUCK IN THIS MAGNETIC FORCE AND OVERPOWERING YOUR DISPOSITION. AND I KNOW THE ONLY REASON YOU HAVEN'T WALKED AWAY IS OUT OF YOUR OWN COMPELLING INTUITION. SO BABY LISTEN,

I AM NOT HER. IM NOT IN THIS TO USE OR HURT YOU, NEITHER AM I HERE TO WASTE TIME. IM NOT HERE TO GET IN YOUR POCKETS OR TO LIE WITH THE NEXT MAN IN LINE. I AM NOT HERE TO FALSELY ACCUSE YOU JUST TO MAKE UP EXCUSES OF WHY I ABUSE YOU. I DO NOT CLAIM TO SUFFER FROM BLACKOUTS TO JUSTIFY MY THROWING DISHES AT YOU. I AM NOT THAT BITCH. I AM NOT THE LADY TO YOU WHO HAVE DONE THIS SHIT.

AND I MUST ACCEPT THIS PUNISHMENT AND CALL IT PATIENCE TO EXCUSE THE FACT THAT BABY, I AM NOT HER. BUT I WILL LEAVE YOU WITH THIS. IF YOU DON'T GET OVER YOUR FEAR OF LOVE, AND BLINDLY COMPARING ME TO THE WHAT WAS, ONEDAY YOU'RE GOING TO WAKE UP AND ALWAYS WONDER WHAT IF THERE WAS AN US....BABY, I AM NOT HER.